wedding day

There Was To Be A Wedding

“Go on and break you crazy heart” -Hank Williams

And it’s another battle of the Heart versus the Head…

It seems like decades since I lived this one particular life and year after year it grows a little fainter leveling part of my soul in total darkness. This should have been a day of joy and happiness… a celebration; but I chose not to attend and thus ruined the party for all concerned. Well, maybe not all concerned as some were glad the party didn’t take place at all and for them that was the real party.

But what do I feel and doesn’t it count for anything? That little intuition inside me kept saying, “no way, you can’t go through with this” even though I fought it tooth and nail out of fear that I was destroying a life. Better to ruin my life than another. Isn’t that the chivalrous thing to do?

What nonsense, cried our Pilgrim. Be true to thyself and that will bring you to a higher truth. Hide behind erroneous thinking and that will leave us as a naysayer of depressed energy longing for a life it thought it knew.

Yes, whispered the heart, fingers crossed, bowing slightly to the head. Likewise exclaimed the head winking back to the heart.

©jc2018-9

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JC

I was officially diagnosed with Parkinson’s disease on October 29, 2012. These are my thoughts on Parkinson's and a variety of subjects.

5 thoughts on “There Was To Be A Wedding”

    1. That is the question, isn’t it, after all, this time. When Thomas Jefferson was minister to France he had an affair with a prominent lady. After it was over, he wrote a piece called the Heart and Head, it’s very good and he used the arguments laid down in this essay for the rest of his life. It’s probably on the internet.

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  1. Beautifully written post Jeff and one a number of us will recognise in our own lives. With these questions raised so strongly within you had the courage to listen.
    I quote one paragraph : ” What nonsense, cried our Pilgrim. Be true to thyself and that will bring you to a higher truth. Hide behind erroneous thinking and that will leave us as a naysayer of depressed energy longing for a life it thought it knew. ”

    I love this.

    Miriam

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  2. Lately, it appears you’ve been exploring those secrets the heart holds fast. I’m certainly intrigued and filled with curiosity, but like you say, the mysteries you’ve hidden are as they should be. Beautiful thoughts. xo

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